Looking Deep Inside

I lift up my soul to You
To see it in thine light my Lord
it does look good and well in my sight
but how does it look to You, in your righteousness
and judgement?
You do see it deep inside
whatever is buried underneath
where no human eyes can penetrate
to see its true ugly state

On the surface, pretty and perfect
calm and smooth to trick any looker
But how does it respond
when it is trampled, rejected or ridiculed
will it be  graceful, and forgiving
in the deepest and hidden part of my heart
which no one could see
Or would it raise its ugly hood
hissing and spurting the venom of
vengence despite the outward pretence
of calm and compose.

Help me Lord to see myself deep inside
as You see it
so that in Your grace
let my soul be pure at all circumstances.